motherless.
having a mother who doesn’t know the least bit about parenting, is not having a mother at all. family doesn’t mean anything, not to me anyways, it’s like i never had one, and that’s fine, id rather not have one then pretend i do… i am an orphan. my heart maybe full of holes and blackness, but no mother could actually fix that. i guess i’m just afraid that i won’t ever be a mother either, because i never had one.. my children wont know their grandparents. because my parents don’t want to know me. only the bonus cash they get with me being alive.. that’s another thing, i have been dead for 18 years. i cannot wait for the day i start living. it just might be the day i walk away and never look back.










